Back on track

Well I'm down to my starting weight again.  This morning was 226.5.  At least I'm lower than my heaviest.  I plan on doing the bike today and eating well.  I've got to keep it going

I was right

I was right...228.5.  I'm officially the most I have ever weighed!  What is wrong with me?  I did the exercise bike today and have been watching what I eat.  I'm so hopeful this will come off quickly!  I have to get ready for my 40th birthday trip to Aruba!

winners never quit

I have had a rough few days.  I told myself that I was going to do the exercise bike for 30 minutes after work and I haven't done it.  I even went to the store and got a bag of sour gummy bears and a red velvet cookie.  I don't understand why I do this.  I have fruit right next to me but don't want to eat it.  It just doesn't make sense.  Today I put on my fat pants for work and they are tight around the thigh and hip area.  The kids have off from school tomorrow so we HAVE to go to the gym!  I have to make a change!  I need to write EVERYTHING on My Fitness Pal, even if I don't like what I am seeing.  I weigh myself tomorrow and will see how the week has been but I'm expecting the worse. 


You never have to start over if you don't quit!  I need to remember this!  And Oprah recently said in People, you can have what you want, just not all of the time.  I'm such an instant gratification person that I need to shift to this mindset as well.  It's a work in progress.


Katy

Lazy day

well, I gained back to 226.5 after the Super Bowl.  I suspected it though.  I planned on going to the gym but talked myself out of it and came home to rest.  It's so hard to get going in the morning And Nd I just want to lay down and relax.  However, my plan is to walk the dog for a secret me time later today and to exercise on the bike for 30 minutes after work this week.  Hopefully I will stick to this.  Wish me luck!

Katy

Carnival fun

I went to the carnival with my family and had a great time!  There were a few rides like the slide that I would t go down because I thought my bottom would be too big and then the guy was really sketchy about the bullet and I thought maybe he didn't want to tell me that I was too big.  Anyways, I had a few bites of funnel cake and a bite of a fried Oreo (which I didn't like).  I stepped in the scale this morning and was 223.5! Three pounds down!  I'm planning on doing this he bike today and will hopefully keep this up!  Feeling positive!

Katy

And so it begins...

February 2, 2017


I did it.  I feel liberated to have a number but also disgusted at how much I have let myself go.  It is 226.5.  I knew it was high and was actually thinking 230 so it's better than I expected but I still have so far to go.  I put on a new top today from Loft that is SO cute. It's a size L and the sleeves are tight around my bicep.  I feel very self conscious now.  My feet hurt and my hips hurt.  It's difficult for me to get up and down easily.  I feel almost disabled by my weight.  It has to change! 


So, my plan is to post my weight at least once a week, maybe more.  I think I will do pictures on the first of the month every month to compare.  I'm sure this will evolve but I need accountability.  Here's hoping this works!


Katy

P.S.-  I ate a cookie and it didn't even taste that good.  :/

The Beginning

February 1, 2017


I am tired. 
I'm tired of being the fat friend.
I'm tired of not looking how I want in my clothes.
I'm tired of not feeling comfortable.
I'm tired of not feeling like myself.
I'm tired of food being a priority.
I'm tired of food monopolizing my thoughts.


I'm tired of it all and I'm ready for a change.  I've tried every diet craze that is known to man.  I have no will power and do well for a little bit and then fall off the bandwagon.  I reward myself with food...how crazy is that?  I've decided that I have to hold myself accountable and am hoping that if anyone reads this they will too.  I've decided to do something that I haven't done before.  I'm putting it out there for anyone and everyone.  I'm not going to pretend that this doesn't exist.  I need to do better for myself, my husband, and my kids.

I am not tech savvy and know that I will struggle with that aspect of this as well but I will do my best.  I need to be honest with myself and make some changes.  I need to not do a "fad" diet and learn to eat and live better.  I hope you will help me.


Tomorrow I will attempt to add a starting weight and pictures.  That will be scary but I need to document my progress.  I'm the heaviest I have ever been.  I'm taking the first step.


Katy